Once upon a time.....

you were the best i ever had....

2011-06-23T11:50:00.000-07:00

this post is specially for this girl , kelly

kelly , thanks for telling me to move on , thanks for your thoughtfulness ...

i just wanna say ... i dont blame you for telling me this... please dont keep on thinking that others are all blaming on you ...and all the fault is on you.... its not what i meant ... If you dont have any feelings for me , its ok.... i can accept it...to be frank....you are not the first one to hurt me like this...

afterall this is gonna be a laughing stock to others only....

its ok i really dont blame you ...and i do forgive you... soon you will find a better guy in inti...

even if you say u dont wanna be in a relationship in college .... i can assure you , you will find yourself getting into a crush on someone, and maybe you will feel what i m feeling now...

kelly, you are in a uni now... dont care what others think of you , be it that you are the only girl in class or difficult subjects or others picking on you.... just be strong , and believe in yourself....

once again i m not trying to blame you ,kelly...

maybe you havent been rejected before.... so...maybe you wont know how it feels inside...

but i m ok with it ....i m gonna be fine...

thats all i wanna say....

so you are tired of carrying the world on your back...

2011-06-22T09:02:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy , i have no fucking idea why i m being all so emotional, you know i never felt so emo for a long time right...?

i have no idea what is my fucking problem....i cant seem to know why i m going all emotional with her ..... ending up making her pissed ... i just cant get what she meant by 'clingy guys'

i dont wanna mention what happened just now...because its not her fault at all...

i should probably stop giving her the emo attitude to her , i dont wanna lose her ....

i should probably be the hyper and happy guy she once knew

i am really sorry if i upset you again fish..

chris and andy and zhen yang and many more , i once again say i miss you guys so much , i miss the smell of singapore, the smell of what i used to call home ... i miss the sunshine there too ...i miss everything single thing about singapore , be it the good or the bad....even the worst ....

that is all for the day , night folks....

P.s i wish could hug her and say i m sorry ...

The Afterglow

2011-06-21T09:42:00.000-07:00

Hey bloggy, its feels like there is not much of anyone who will listen to my troubles, is there ?

even if i talk to them about this all i get are replies like ' ohhh ic', ' no la, you are not', ' dont think too much la', 'chill out man' or 'dont emo la'..... kinda felt pretty down recently, tests , projects , assignments ... and thinking about her ....kinda makes me sad...uncertain... though i know i m a guy and i should be putting up a strong image ....but i m only human ... i see the way she talks to jasper ...and i compare him with me ....there was not much difference , we still get the cold treatment ....though i m treated sightly better ... well that what i feel...maybe its just me...

She is always engross with her friend's iphone and i m always ending up watching her play ... after classes , she didnt even utter a single word of concern bout me , probably because she was engrossed with her game again...

when she speaks to me in a warm method ... could she be talking to me like how she normally talks to the other guys ? m i still being to paranoia , perhaps i am...

she says she needs time and she said lets be friends first ....well i m cool with it actually ... but it doesnt seems like i m making any progress... anything in life now makes me feel like a fucked up loser ... i m seriously getting pissed on by life... life is still being a bitch to me ...

i seriously miss my best buddy chris and andy and the others ... at least chris and chris will listen to my troubles and give me advises , instead of making fun of my troubles .... why is all this shitty things keeps on happening to me? i may be smiling and joking at the outside but the soul inside of me is always in the dark .

i never thought i would end up like this , i always thought that guys getting all emotional because of girls were pathetic ....a disgrace to the male society , but look at me now ... i feel so disgusted with myself ...

i miss the feeling of being where i belong... malaysia is such a alien place to me ... leaving singapore for 2 years makes singapore feel like a superior country after living here for 2 years ....and now it feels alien to me now ... i have always envy my friends they were born here and stay here and studied here .... they have the sense of home ...but i m a soul feeling lost ....where is everyone that i need in my life .... a hug from someone ....anyone ....telling me : 'everything is gonna be fine, have faith in yourself'....

thats all for today bloggy....writing on you makes me feel better...

have a sweet nightmare

ohhhh and i love what she drew for me^^^^^

really like it ._.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ETrHoNCqPg

i love this song, makes me rock out my sorrow

look who is back!!!!!!

2011-06-18T20:37:00.000-07:00

hey people ! cant believe i m actually blogging again , if i m blogging again you know what that means right? probably because i m screwing things up .

well what can i say? Life hasn't quite turn out the way i want. Can someone tell me why am i always screwing things up?

So here the thing... i meet this girl in english class , and she is a first sem student , and she is a 1993 baby ....FINALLY someone is the same age as me in this god forsaken hell hole... and she is special to me...she is outgoing, kind, active .... she seem special to me. No matter how much i told her she was special, she just keep on asking questions like' what is so special about me' or ' why do you like me?'... and no matter how much i try to answer her questions, she is never ever satisfied with them, its kinda frustrating for me...its like asking ' why is the sky blue?'

once i screw things up by saying some stupid stuff , she got pissed , but i manage to gain her forgiveness ..... and everything seems fine for a bit ... Then she friends started to tease her and me , making her seriously stressed and pissed ... well i m cool with that , but she is not, then she told her ex bout this , and this is what her ex told me

'Allen you have a minute? (:Uhm I know I shouldn't get into this but, Kelly don't want to be in a relationship now. She broke up with me not because we don't love each other, it's because she have some problems that cannot be solve at the moment. If that single problem didn't appear. I won't break up with her and, she is still with me now. I hope you understand this. Please don't stress her up bro. Thanks alot'

That was what he said to me , you know how pissed off i was ? but i controlled my wrath and i gave him some face. Those statements were a ' fuck-off asshole, she does not like you , she hates you '. He told me not to bother her...so what now? He is trying to blame me , that her friends teasing her is MINE fault? come on dude , think before you talk. i maybe young but i have gone through more than your pathetic life , when you were still in secondary school , i m in the uni already , and you are trying to telling me i m harassing a girl ? From MY CLASS? ...and what this deal with all the negative post indirectly referring to me? did i OFFENDED you? come on dude , u wanna start a quarrel , talk to me face to face , dont be a coward ... it was all because of you that you ruin my friendship with me and her. She used to talk to me like we were close friends....now look what you done, she is only giving me one sentence or even one word replies, happy now?

i will not fight over a girl , if you really love her, you should know the REAL reason why she broke up with you , and change for the better and go after her again . i will not gain another enemy because of a girl , that is because i am not obsessed with her , but you are ...

even though knowing her for only a few weeks , it kinda hurts seeing her treating me like this ...

and i understand her feelings , so i will not 'BOTHER' her as it was what her ex requested ...

thought it might work out good ...never thought it would ended up like this ...

its been more than one year since i left my birthplace, singapore, for this god forsaken crap hole.... i still misses my friends ... the fun loving group ...

anyways I GOT MY NEW GUITARRRR!!!!! i love it so much :)

see ya peeps , til next time...

P.S cheer up FISHY KELLY!

life is a totally mess

2010-12-16T08:36:00.000-08:00

hey ppl....here to write again....recently broke up with shermaine....really a blow to me.....it was no ones fault....but if u say it has to be someones fault , then i would say its me....

ii do admit i wasnt really a good boyfriend to her, didnt spend enough time talking to her....thats what she wants, maybe?...

but i have been single for such a long time....been a lone wolf a long time....i just cant get use to it

...she didnt wanna break up, but in the end we decide we should go our separate ways....i couldnt bear the pain so does she....

even if we broke up , i will be the boy u once knew before we got together....

she is the first girl that i ever kissed....she is kind to me, and i took it for granted....perhaps...

i still wanna be good friends with her...i really do.....

but......

i heard rumors that she is back with her ex,i asked her , she don seem like she wanna say anything, and said i was afraid she have a new boyfriend....awww come on i just wanna know that u r at least with someone better than me.....

the moment she said that she is going out to drink with her friends, i had a version of my aunt...really bad impression...and wat is with that tone u gave me? when i called to check whether u r safe or not?....awww come on....u r not the girl i used to know....

there are some other side reasons, y i think a break up was a good idea....

1) too many guys is after her

2) this jay guy? wats the idea of being so close to her when he already have a gf?....i dont know, it makes me feel he is her bf than i m.....

3)i m not a psychic, i cant read ur mind girl, how am i supposed to know when u r bored or lonely? thought u had all those guys chasing after u? jay? keith?dino?

4)expecting my calls?....girl, i exploded my bills for u, last month and almost got myself killed.....

5) u said u r a playgirl that need a good boy?....ouch, in the face...that explains all the boys coming to u....

i dont mean to be a totally douche bag...but i have been containing wrath inside of me ....the moment u used that tone on me girl,that cold ungrateful tone, u had it coming girl....

its her birthday this sat, i wanna do something for her....like wat she did for me.....but since i assume she is with someone already, i guess i will leave them be, i don wish to be the third party like those guys were when we were together...

but still....i do still love her...the shermaine i used to know.....

so this song is for her

http://www.lunarist.com/2010/03/rsp-tabidatsu-kimi-he-bleach-ed/

thank you so much for the good times......

epic failure....

2010-12-10T05:44:00.002-08:00

hey ppl, good to be back blogging....sooo....the holidays have started as u know, houseworks as usual....cooking cleaning , farming.....running errands here and there?...went out with my mom for breakfast then get the bus tickets for my dad....hmmmmm i m kinda excited going back to Singapore on the 21th Dec....woooohoooooo.... Singapore i miss u soooo much!!! i miss my friends there the food there, the air there, the music of life there ....:)...and the smell of safety....

but the bad thing is that i wont be able to text or communicate with shermaine....:(...lol....maybe we need to take a break....kinda struggling to keep our relationship afloat , i know that maintaining this relationship wont be fruitful....after all, i have to left her for Aussie....what my sis said was right....but she is the girl that has been so nice to me, and i dont wanna lose her......i do doubt my mature thinking sometimes....i just dont know what is right and what is wrong now.....but i do miss her a lot.....

anyway , i really love my new blog skin.its cool, emo and anime-ish....XD....hahaha

thats for all folks, enjoy the music.....:)

back from the _____?

2010-12-05T07:59:00.000-08:00

so hey ppl, i m back , soeey didnt really update this blog lately, was have the finals , so i wasnt free,
but hey who cares, i m back rite? hahaha

a lot happened lately , don really wanna list the bad things that had happened to me...

hahaha, but i wanna say thanks to my dearest shermaine:), i mean again,....for the birthday cake she give me on my 17 birthday...:) it really sweet of her :)....since it the holidays now , i knida miss school,my friends, hahhahaha maybe the school ? hahah the one i miss the most is my shermaine....:) miss hanging out with her , studying with her ,chatting with her ....but is alrite one month isnt that bad rite?....i have got through 6 months of housework and farming life ,wat is 1 month to me ?:) hahaha...

kinda worried for my finals result ....but cant do much now rite?....so just gonna hope for the best i guess :)

thats alll for tonight folks ....ciao :)

she was part of me....

2010-11-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

hey ppl.....guess today is just isnt my day.....
didnt got enough sleep, had to go for school for just 2 hrs and 4 hrs of traveling was not worth the shit....

didnt had appetite today, have no idea why.....

it started with just a joke.....didnt thought that she would be upset and would start to ignore me.....

i tried apologizing, but honestly i didnt know wat i said.....maybe i said something that upset her.....i m sorry, i really am......i sent her a sms to apologize , she didnt reply me.....she totally just turned so cold to me......i just don feel her chemistry with me now.....i may not be a total control freak like her ex, but i do care for her.....i dont get upset with her talking to other guys ....i dont mind , because i put my faith in her....i believe she knows wat she is doing ....i trust her.....i know there r a lot of guys out there waiting for her.....and i m the lucky one. maybe some guys is making her feeling towards me fade....or maybe i m just being too paranoid ..... after all thats wat sagittarius do.....but too be honest i never tried to flirt any girls ever since we got together.....

does it always have to be the guy taking the initiative ??....i m trying hard , but i don see her effort.....

i m scare.....god lay salvation on me.....for i m a lost soul reaching out for my other half......

i don know i m i write.....but here is the conclusion: she got me so sad today......

anyway i messed up my blog , so u guys might not be able to comment until i get a new skin.....

thats all for tonight....ciao....

time and again.....

2010-10-29T08:10:00.001-07:00

hey ppl.....

kinda feel better after an early sleep last night....and slept for almost 12 hrs.....supposed to have a test today, however it was postpone again....replacement class was canceled too, was going for a 2hrs class and spending 4 hrs travelling is pointless, so i decide to agree with my mom in not going for lecture today, since she was too busy to send me to the ktm....so i took today as a day-off to recover my health....lol....

nth special really happened today.....expect for sharmaine being ....rather moody....

i know its een hard for her to communicate with me, so do i find it hard to maintain my english standard. but still i do love her......if she thinks communication is a barrier between our worlds , then i will break down that barrier....if she is willing to work with me, i will do my best....i will help her to improve ,so that my sis will not look down on her like a normal cheap malaysian girl.....to me she is as important as my family.....i m sorry i have been making fun of your english all this time, i should have try correct u than make fun of u.....i m truly sorry sweetheart....forgive me.....remember before we got together , i once said i will chase away ur sorrow?.....well i have now failed.....because ...look at u now....u r so moody....so pls smile not for me....but for us...will u ?? pls......

thats all for today.....night folks....i miss u shi min.......

home sweet home

2010-10-28T06:26:00.001-07:00

hello ppl , i m home from another 2 days of stay in inti......i must say i had a great time preparing with my friends and sweetheart , although the living condition was pretty harsh....i m still grateful to Aedan for his place to stay in.....lol.....

i supposed to be back yesterday, however , my mom was busy and couldn't pick me up , so she told me to stay for another day, so i had to reused the clothings....

so here i m back home, missed my bed,missed my room lol......aedan's roommates r really.....pigs in disguise.....hahaha lol......and i don feel well after the 2 days stay....reason being, not drinking enough water, burning midnight oil, and heaty food......ohhhhh god,.....my head is swelling man......

so i'm going get some sleep and hope i recover by tmr :) and luckily tmr math test was postpone to next week.....

thats all for tonight , night folks :)

P.S. i love u sharmaine......:)

its full moon tonight!!!!

2010-10-22T06:30:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!!! PPL!!!! i think its full moon tonight :) wooohoooo hahahaha ohhhhh beautiful miss moon XD shine radiance on me :).......hahahaha went to for annie's presentation XD hahaha she was begging me not to enter the theater XD hahahahaha but i didnt laugh at her :) not me it was that other guys XD, so if u fail don blame me, put on the guys XD hahahhaa

after that i went for lunch with xiaoyinn and we went to the library and i did the MPW slides touch up, and did the eboration for xiaoyinn....lol..... didnt when for the optional csc class.....gahhhh stress man.....

its time i stop playing a fool and study really hard......ciao folks :) i love u sharmaine

i was here and there......

2010-10-21T06:06:00.000-07:00

hi ppl i just came back from my 3 days and 2 nights in inti , i had a pretty fun time with my buddies, we played basketball we did our MPW assignment......well mostly was me doing it.......hahahaha and it is pretty relaxing self-studying in school with sharmaine, having to know i dont have to rush for the bus and stuff.....:)....

hai but still its me doing the PowerPoint slides without their help....might as well i do it alone at home?......jeez.....but i m grateful that sharmaine was by my side and taking a walk with me will i need a break from the stress while the guys are playing and hanging out......:) thanks xiaoyinn :)......

hai the presentation slides are no problem for me....but it is that those guys don know how to elaborate the points and i have to write wat they have to say for they so that they can memorize....2 down 4 to go......great.....I M NOT A GOD!!!!! I M A HUMAN FOR GOD SAKE!!!!! .... if i help them....who is gonna help me??.....

sorry for rushing things xiaoyinn, sorry that ur single life have to end again......sooo sorry.......

give me ur words lord....

2010-10-18T05:30:00.002-07:00

hey ppl.....

so.....er.....lets begin my story , lol today was not really my day, didnt bought my lab coat from chemistry lab lesson, fortunately i managed to lend it from dee lern's roommate ....had a tummy ache during my trip to school......hai.....

to make things worsts, i had my engineering static test 2 today, i swear to whatever god up there, i tried my best......and i gonna fail....i freaking cant do the questions , even if i wanna write at least something, i didnt even know where on earth to start......

but i don care man, as long as i tried my best, there is no time for regrets, so i gonna freaking kill the finals....and i shall redeem my pride as a student from singapore.....i m not gonna lose out, go away i gonna let myself, if i do i will never forgive myself.....

and....so to my love life.....sometimes i wonder whether she really have feelings for me or not, there r so many guys out there waiting for her......chan weng yee.... wats so special bout u that she will choose u?......

but seriously, i hate ppl who gives me false hope.....if she doesnt have any feelings for me , i hope that she will break my heart now rather than dragging it and breaking it after all the good times.....

but still she is still my obachan :D....obachan !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......hahahahahaaha

thats all for tonight folks :)

will u be mine?

2010-10-15T05:48:00.001-07:00

hello folks.....arhhhhhh i don think everyone love to get nagged by theirs parents rite?....lol arhhhh u can guess wat happened.....

lol so went to school earlier so i could meet 'small bun'....hahahaha.....we went to the AO to hang out , she is kinda sick, wish i could do something to help her....and she was lacking of sleep, lol and she fell asleep while she was watching 'one piece' hahahaha .....and i held her in my arms ......arhhhh shy leh. hahahaha......

she went back JB today, lol.....i m kinda worried bout her.....but there is nth i can do rite?....so she have to take care of herself there hahahaha.....

arhhhhh man i had class till 6pm......the inti bus so cramp , and ktm was a can to pack sardines .....lol......jeez man....and i had my mom nagging at me all the way home......y cant she just put me in the hostel and understand my sufferings??.....she always thinks studying is a child's play......

jeez she needs to put herself into my shoes......wat the hell man......

another day in inti

2010-10-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

hey peeps......arhhhhh its another day of school.....really boring ,

i m kinda worried bout my exams , i have been slacking alot lately.....but i m sure i gonna make it through.....

i need to do the self studying real soon...

awwww man......here is the formula....MPW class = (sleeping X political history) + seeing xiaoyin's ex bei suon face ......-.-lll........

googd news is my eyes kinda don feel painful anymore.....maybe its because its so painful lately, i m immune to the pain already......-.-lll.....hahahahahaha

arrrhhhh tired lehh.....

thats all for today folks see ya.....

if u r not the one

2010-10-12T07:09:00.000-07:00

heeelllooo folks.....its a awesome day for me today......i knida woke up later than usual today lol......and missed the inti bus because the ktm was late.....and was made to take the cab.....lol

chem lesson was canceled today so i have plenty of break time today XD.. ahhhhh my last class which was csc, cant understand wat the lecturer was trying to teach us, so i gave up and played a DOTA match with my friends lol......jeez i wonder how are we gonna pass this sem??.....

after csc went to the library with my friends , and met up with xiaoyin in the library later on.....hahahaha we were supposed to study ....-.-lll ended up sleeping and talking hahahahaa.....after that we went to the sidewalk to grab some snacks.....arrrhhhhh i swear the shop sell the most expensive and suckiest food ever man.....i not gonna buy the food there anymore man.......rrrrrrr.....

after that i kinda send xiaoyin home ......arrrhhhhh wanted to hold her hand but......errr.... no courage to do it lehhhh.....scare she don want hold then i ps....-.-lll......

but still i had a fun time with her XD......

well er thats enough for today XD.....ciao folks

i m getting fat......

2010-10-11T05:41:00.002-07:00

good evening ppl.....arhhhhh yes i know i mmmm fat.....zzzzz....i need to exercise.....but i wanna play basketball, and there isnt any nearby court for me.....-.-lll......i don like jogging......no fun and no competition .....arrrhhhhhhh......

anyway miss wong pooi see says she is gonna fly to aussie for her P.H.D soon next week or end of this month....hmmmm i wonder wat new teacher we gonna get?...

arhhhhh and my right eye......MY EYE!!!!.....its freak swollen......god damn it man.....screw it.....i went to the pharmacy, and the pharmacist told me i was looking at too much girls.....-..-lll hahahaa but its actually my body is too 'heaty' , burned too much midnight oil XD ghahahahahaha.......this is all xiaoyin fault XD hahahahaha

ohhhhh and today static class i saw xiaoyin bf on his way ....and he was staring atme....O.o.....in my mind i was like ' wat? dude u have a problem?, u kinda look like a 15 yrs old immature boy?' lol....no offence but.....jeez man get a life playboy O.-.....

awwww god.....i wanna stay in the hostel.....y wont my parents let me.....-.-lll....old fashion....xiaoyin, this is call 'generation gap'.....lol...hahah

arhhhh i cant believe my friends got higher than me in chemistry WHHHYYYY???!!!!!......nbm i swear i gonna do better than this bullshit....>:D......watch out :)

alrite thats all for tonight.....ciao folks....

arhhhh another day of slacking....

2010-10-10T07:26:00.000-07:00

hello folks

arhhh.....yes she is the one who requested for another post,

i don know her feelings towards me....but one thing i know is not to rush things.....

because i understand she needs space to breath...she is the really first one the could make me think

of a girl,which is girl....in INTI......lol.....sound corny.....hahaha....even if she does not choose me in the future, i wish to be a friend that stand by her in times of sadness and emptiness...because to be loving someone doesnt always mean that u have to be a bf'/gf to him/her.....its about knowing to let go and seeing her smile ....

hahahahahahaha.....somehow i feel that she is a girl that i can spend my happy times with XD.....hahahaha and she is someone i can bully XD....bwwwahahahahaha

arhhhhh today isn't a special day so there isn't anything cool to talk bout

but to me everyday is a special when i get to talk to her....:).....

arhhhh i wanna go watch Bleach le....sign off here :) ciao folks....

P.S xiaoyin baka moyashi=stupid bean-sprout ....:) u know? ben toa gay :)

I M ALIVE!!!!

2010-10-09T10:35:00.001-07:00

ishhhhh.......hi peeps....sorry to those wants to read my posts,kinda lazy to update it....lol.....hahahaha.....but this morning someone requested for me to update this blog ....haha lol....

let me describe this someone....:)....she is a sweet girl with a sweet smile, she have this really bright hair XD....and a shortie XD.....hahahahaha....i call her sharmaine, well thats not her real name...but i prefer calling her that :)....ahahahahaha.....meet her in Malaysian studies class....saw that she is a girl that is worth my care and concern :)....

both of us are Sagittarius , its a super cool coincidence , i mean i seldom meet a person that has the same horoscope as me....so its pretty cool :).....hahaha....

well its 1.42 am now...and it is A MORNING!!!.....gonna get going.....hahaha until next time folks :).....no gonna say how i got to approach her but u can say its called fate , hmmm well thats wat i believe in XD.....hahahaha ciao folks

blahhhh

2010-05-31T05:53:00.000-07:00

HElo ppl.....school as usual.....physics was boring.....engineering math was fine.....life in inti?.....getting better after making some friends.....

lol this week sis got her new notebook.....she is pretty happy bout i,well then i m gonna use her old one......gosh...they always get the new things and i m always getting the old stuff......yeah i know world is never fair in my eyes.....

anyway....life is getting busy...somehow every time i feel empty i long for sunshine to be here for me.....but i understand sometimes she have her own problem and emptiness to deal with...and i wish i can be there for her....:)....i m glad there i met sunshine :).....this may seem a litlle random but...i m saying it from my heart :).....never too late,jet'aime....

thats all for tonight folks i need to study :) ciao

love makes u sad too....

2010-05-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

hey ppl.....i m back...yeah school is hard for me.....never expected the unexpected.....
the big problem is friends and my journey to school.....
i really felt down on monday....never felt so down in my life before.....
lucky the next day sunshine was the one who made me smile again by introducing the number 9 to me......

hai....but today....sunshine made me doubt my feelings toward her........is she really the one for me?.....haiii......help miss jac to help my problems out and give me her advice,T.T....i miss jac room and her sweet sweets....hai......counselor Jacqueline!!!! help meeeee.....

thats all for tonight.....nites folks....

someone pls SMS (save my soul)

2010-05-20T06:30:00.000-07:00

hey ppl......i never thought the college life was not wat i expected .....first is because i m getting a long-winded teacher for physics....and a teacher who cant speak fluent english.....ohhh god.....and worse is my class is all made up of boys only......arhhh shit.....

today i came back home at 8 ++.....i m feel freaking tired.....i missed talking to my sunshine,oh how missed i long for the way she made me smile.....y does my family member just have to say the wrong things at the wrong time,and they have to feel the wrath of my mother....
... ohhh screw my life.....every journey to and fro INTI is just like knocking out my soul bit by bit......
i seriously missed the life i used to have in singapore , where i can run away from the stress once in a while.....but now.....hai...don wanna speak of the evils.....

thats all for tonight ....ciao folks.....

blaaaaahhhh....

2010-05-15T23:56:00.000-07:00

hey ppl i m back again.....i had buffet with my family at 'the legend hotel 'yesterday...i ate so full till i cant walk....i actually didnt had the mood to eat ......but i still ate loads...

the reason of me having no mood is because my parents said that i will not be going UK to study but i will go Melbourne....but i didnt wanna go Melbourne....i wanna go UK with sunshine and study there.....hai....perhaps the possibilities r critically low......but i will work hard for my results to earn my right in decide where i go for my further studies......but if fate does not want us to go UK together....will we be the same after a few years later??........T.T.......

actual schooling starts tmr that is y i m blogging early today......once school starts i wont be able to be online every single day......so u guys gonna need to take care ok?......i hve to wake up at 5am tmr.....so i might go sleep at 9pm.....

ciao folks .....maybe we will meet one day again........have a nice day....

hello ppeepz

2010-05-12T06:57:00.002-07:00

how r u guys doing?....hmmmm going to college tmr.....actually its the orientation .....probably i m planning to skip it halfway.....the actual studying will be next week monday 17may.....awwww man i cant wait to start studying again...afer all the suffering i got from houseworks.....way to go.....yaaahooooooooo....hahahahha....

glad to know that sunshine is safe and sound...it was just all my imagination...rite sunshine???......

hahahaha anyway thanks to all the pl who view my drawings and commented on it.....:) i will try my best to come out with new ones to impress u guys...:D

thats all for tonight ,good night folks :D

hi ppl!!!

2010-05-10T07:16:00.000-07:00

hey ppl long time ..:).....all the pic r drawn by me.....enjoy and comment ...thanks :D

back from the dead....

2010-04-26T07:10:00.000-07:00

hey peez....back again....tell u something totally awesome....college life is starting soon!!!....like 1 month later man!!!.....arhhh i much i long for the warmth of studying!!!.....awww jeez.....

anyway vaness had a new bf....well er....i m happy for her.....that dude better take of that silly girl........if i don ...he is gonna get it.....from me!.....
to vaness:'sorry i wasnt there for u,i was not fit to be ur first love,do last long'......:)

anyway sunday supposed to go out with sunshine !...but family wanna go out.....hai....missed the chance to see her again......nbm....because...

To sunshine:'never too late,Je t'aime...rite?' hahahaha...:D.....miss ya so much sunshine!

sunshine ,where were u ?

2010-04-21T05:59:00.000-07:00

hey peez, yeah man back from genting,........well~it was....arhh....ok?........but will be better if sunshine came along......rawrhhh!!!......we reached genting at around 11+am...and we took lunch and headed out shopping for a while and that my mom headed off to casino at around 2+....and me and my sis went the arcade...and i was freaking sad, cus the 'house of the dead 3' machine was down....damn....we ended play games like 'max midnight tune' and 'time crisis'....and later we went play the basketball game.....and we had lunch....

And then later at 8+ my sis went to the casino with my mom....damn and i was alone .....and i start searing....where cant Vivian come ALONG!!!!......rawrhhhh...its would be so much better if she was there with me.....we could just take a stroll outside the park and star graze!.......the scenery was awesome at night.......hai.....

but YEAH.....i wanna go watch iron man 2 with Vivian before school starts !!! woooohoooo.......totally awesome.....

oh by the way....i spent really a lot of cash on the arcade......including my own money......damn......^[--$--]^

alrite that all for tonight....ciao folks.....moonlight loves u loads....XD

back!....

2010-04-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

hey peez.....my bog was dead for a long time huh?....did anyone missed me?....i don think so rite.....?hahaha alrite....i was really lazy to update...haha....to cut it short...life was rather rough still.....
college life will be start soon on 12 may.....ah jeez.....life still have to move on rite?......

anyway going genting with my sis and mom tmr.....dad is not in KL ...so er...3 of us will be going....damn it.....i really hate it when i have to go play by myself without sunshine......(sob)....my sis and mom will be going the casino.....rawrhhhhh.......i really wish vivian can change her mind before tmr and decide to come with us......things will seem so different without her going...T.T

so in other words i will be M.I.A tmr,tuesday........hai.....
ciao for now ppl......thats all for now...

i m sorry.......

2010-04-07T06:07:00.000-07:00

this is to vaness......
hey.....i know tht i had ask for this break up...and i had broke ur heart....i was ur first love.....i just don want u to to keep on waiting for me to come back to singapore.....i don want to rob u of ur chances of finding a better bf....things was not the still as 13/4 was .....u knew that,i know that too......i don want u to keep hanging on to a guy that u can only date cyber-ly.....the chances of me meeting u again r so low,that its almost impossible......i m really grateful for ur care and concern......but i must leave u,so that u wont keep waiting for me,i don want to give u anymore false hope......when u grow up and earn ur freedom ,soon u will understand wat i mean.....i m sorry for hurting u....u can put all the blame on me for ur sadness......blame it all on me if u like......but pls don hurt urself.....

happy birthday SIS!!!

2010-04-01T08:09:00.000-07:00

HEY SISTER!!!.....had fun celebrating ur birthday with ur friends!.....hahaha didnt expect to have so much fun !.....haha and hey sunshine HOPE U ENJOY THAT DRAWING!!! NOW SING ME A SONG OF I CAN LAUGH AT U!!!!.....hahaha

thats all for tonight...farewell ppl!....oh wanna thanks sean ,jackie, rubin,vivian for celebrating my sis birthday!....happy advance birthday sis!....XD

pissed....

2010-03-31T06:53:00.000-07:00

alrite...i m damn pissed....tmr was the day i been looking forward to....a date i can see vivan and get away from my afternoon and morning works......tmr is the date i supposed to go celeba

gonna go celebrate my sis birthday with her friends.......but the time is set to 6.15PM.....SO I HAVE TO STAY AT HOME TO WORK!!!!.....I m NOT gonna go tmr.....no way i m going......
1) its too late
2)y would i go when its already my resting time???
3)6.15pm to 8pm.....y the fuck would i go??.....i thought we can go shop or something and get out of home of its houseworks.....

good nite.....

hey peeps

2010-03-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

HEY PPL!!!changed my blogskin...so er hope u like it!!!....hahhaa its been awhile since this place got its update...so er there u have it....ciao folks ....good nite!!

P.S.I wish vivian a speedy recovery so she can go celebrate my sis birthday together!!
and sweetheart pls stop injuring urself ....XD....both great and gorgeous ladies do take care....:P

me 1 u 2

2010-03-15T09:12:00.000-07:00

hey peepz!!.....haha i m back yeah...anyway i m not taking 3D animation as a course already...
reason being mom's disapproval....mom also disapprove of mass com.....so i m planning to take megatronic engineer-ing.....

sorry peeps my trip back to singapore have been cancel so ah.....i wont be seeing me on this friday...

haha i don have much to write ....but i m happy to see girlfriend so happy....:D

I LOVE YOU vanessXD

back...

2010-03-12T05:24:00.000-08:00

hey ppl....i m back blogging....recently i having been busy getting myself in and out of trouble.....anyway....me and vaness relationship is...i dunno to say its good or bad....sometime i really wish we could go back to how we were like in 13/2.....to me...its like she talks to me in her good mood....and treat me coldly in her bad mood.....wat does she takes me for??....a toy???.....awww jeez....i m almost at my brim....how much longer do u want to treat me this way vaness....?....i try to console u...u don want....i really feel upset seeing u suffering so much .....all i want is to make u happy.....just wanna let u know that....i still care for u...and love u...

apologise...

2010-03-08T06:19:00.001-08:00

....this is to my darling vaness....
:honey....i know i have hurt u.....i know something i should not have say that....
but i gonna have to let u know that.....i don have feelings for her now....u r in my heart now....not si jia....pls....i m telling u the truth....i swear....pls don feel sad....i really didnt mean to hurt u....i don u to cry pls....so cheer up....hai....pls accept my apologise to forgive me....everything i say....its true....i m not lying....i never want to....

I M SOORRYY....T.T.....

white chocolate love...

2010-03-06T06:49:00.001-08:00

hey ppl!!!....haha....yeah i know its late....so i er wont write much....
1)help do housework
2)went out with family
3)dinner outside...
4)bout to sleep....
5)..........................missing my white chocolate...

i love white chocolate!!!

looking at the sky....

2010-03-02T06:02:00.000-08:00

...hai...my stupid own comp is dead ...so i m sort of using my sis comp in the meantime...anyway....y must fate do this to me???.....my comp dead....my parents being angry at me.....and alway missing the timing so i can talk to my darling.....(sigh)......anyway i m rather lazy to write much today.....so er nites folks....

sigh....

2010-02-27T06:03:00.002-08:00

hey ppl......awww man...how do i say this.....???....ok.....er....waoke up late today....and got scolded because of that...which i think is totally stupid.....then i help out in the daily chores.....and my mom start nagging again....then went out with my family for the books sales....and i got SCOLDED AGAIN !! for dressing a little too well.....i was like :awww come on ,not again....actuay it was my mom who was the one nagging and yelling at me.....i serious just hate it when this happened.....damn....anyway i really miss my darling.....been days i can have a good chat with her....

to darling:
hey er ....bout yesterday.....i wasnt tat home when u started talking to me....i was out with my family and came home bout 11+.....wanted to talk to u ...but u were offline....
pls don misunderstand that i m actually ignoring u.....so pls don get mad when i didnt reply.....i m sorry.....

ALRITE!!! That All For Tonight , Nites

to her......

2010-02-24T06:59:00.000-08:00

hi diary.......today i m really sad.....one is because i feel pitiful for someone......
another is because of vaness......

she is being sad because of andy tan ......that sec 4 dude......y must he do that to her....she treated him as a brother....a best friend.....and yet he lied to her???why is the biggest mystery to me.....
he lied to her not once but 4 or 5 times......why???......see her cry and being so upset....it just makes my heart aches.....

(sigh)......wat makes me more sad is.....if she thinks for andy that highly........and cried for him....
wat m i to her???......a toy???......a small splinter in her thumb???......wat m i do her???.....wat m i....???......thinking of this is really.....making me sad.....

hey peeps....

2010-02-23T04:24:00.000-08:00

hai lazy to write much today......but i must say this.....ITS DAMN GOOD TO HAVE A MAID!!!!!!!.....hahahaha xD

anyway....my darling today super sad.....i wish iknow how to cheer her up......those stupid two ppl have no right to upset her.......cheer up darling things are gonna be fine.....

the emotionless mood.......

2010-02-21T06:18:00.000-08:00

hey ppl.....again its a super duper tiring day for me ....help out in the soil thing again .....i really hope tmr would be the last day i m doing this......jeez my arms are really aching from the heavy loads i help carry......anyway my cousin really just love to pissed me off.....first he ruin my facebook reputation....now he is pushing the blame by lying that his account and MINE account was hacked by his neighbor.....i was like WTF????y would his neighbour hack my account ,i dont even know him.....hai.....then just now mom scolded me again,for wat reason???i wish not to say.....i wish vaness is here to console me......didnt get to talk to her today.....i feel like the light have betrayed me.......

jeez.....wat a day.....

2010-02-20T06:27:00.001-08:00

hey ppl....its really a long day for me.....so i gonna make this short and sweet
1)help up in making fertile soil for the plants.....by burning the soil.....
2)went to ivy auntie house for a buffet lunch
3)continue in the HELPING.......
4)finished helping .....bout 7++ close to 8 pm....
5)my younger cousin went home
6)found out that my younger cousin spoiled my faceboook reputation by using my account to make dirty comments...
7)i want to talk to my nessie madly.......
8)hoping she is not busy now......

Signing off folks.......nights ,ciao......

i miss u......

2010-02-18T05:02:00.001-08:00

lol ......wow CNY is gonna be over soon............hey hey i remember that that few hours before cny and valentines day..... XD hahahaha......hai its been days that i haven chat with vaness properly.......T.T i just donno y......every time i look at the sky i kinda just remind me of vaness.....i wish that i can talk to her.......

i must say this:i miss u a lot............

happy CNY and Valentines day

2010-02-14T05:41:00.000-08:00

hey peepz......happy CNY and valentines day!!!!! today my aunt ,uncle and my cousin came to visit us today!!!......lol.....supposed to go the lan shop nearby secretly ......but er......our plan was ruin when we were not allowed to go out of t he house......-.-lll.....hai.....anyway today is really really hot!!!!......till the back part of both mine feet cracked really badly............and i m expecting a hell lots of housework to do......T.T.....lol.....anyway rest well peeps ...thats all for today folks .......
ciao.....nites folks....

happy CNY ppl!!! and valentine day!!!!.....XD

2010-02-13T08:10:00.002-08:00

hey ppl......yeah its 12 ++am now.....lol ....though its pretty pissing today.....but after spilling and complaining to vivian i think i feel much better now......hahaha and vaness make me smile through out 2 hours non stop......XD......i love u nessie!!! had fun talking to her......happy valentines day......XD......

YAHHHHH!!!!! FIREWORKS STOP!!!!!......WOHHHHOOOOOO
thats all for today folks......:)

nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag

2010-02-12T07:23:00.000-08:00

hey ppl.....got scolding from my mom agian......-.-lll...yeah agian.....if u ask me for wat....its for nth she scolded me.....fucked up man....early in the morning start she moronic nagging....all the way till 3pm....-.-.....but i decorated my room with beautiful creation of blue tacky ......haha and at night i get to talk to nessie!!!!XD.......p.s.....wonder if i m rite bout vivian is changing in NS.......a;da;djf;dj;iebvkdvibh qbvbqv hv qrvbhbvhdksqhdbsvqoibvhdsanxufbbvhrbvjd;msnkcnurbfjds vjdsvbdjvnjaslcknufvnf lkajfbvjf vjpurbvhreoiughbgoreihhero XD......night folks......

oh yeah vivian IS back.....FYI....

the untitled.....

2010-02-10T05:43:00.001-08:00

hey peeps.....hahaha yeah i m back agian.....few days ago.....i meet a girl.....and she is a pretty interesting girl....she seems to share the same interests as me......she likes to listen to instrumental music......she like to observe the sky.....like sunset and star grazing......wanna know her name???..........her name is vaness .....the Nessie monster.....RAWRH......hahaha......anyway i have some weirdo ppl adding me on msn.....-.O......anyway....thats all for tonight ppl......

back agian....

2010-02-02T06:07:00.002-08:00

HEY ppl.....i m back agian.....haha.....hmmm....u guys missed me???haha lol...
anyway life is stil the same for me.....er....i m going back to singapore on thursday and will be back on ....hmmm sunday i guess.....haha.....anyway...its almost a month since sunshine left for NS ....and....yeah ...she is coming back on the 14th of feb....which is CNY....and as well as Valentines day.....i wish i could give 'it' to her......and hope that she have kept her promise...still two more weeks to wait for.....
.....anyway....i don know whether i should continue talking to her and trying to know her..........she is cute girl....but .....its so hard to talk with her.....its like a QnA session everytime we talk....i m alwy the one asking question and all she gives re short and simple one word answers.......i don know whether she have feelings for me or not.....but somehow i don want to see her get hurt......
i want to leave the reputation i had in singapore.....and start a new reputation in malaysia......

THAT ALL FOR NIGHT....GOOD NIGHT FOLKS !!!!!!!!

tring day....

2010-01-22T05:07:00.000-08:00

jeez....today is a damn tiring day....don wanna talk bout it anymore.....wanna go sleep le....ciao guys....

day3

2010-01-15T05:06:00.000-08:00

this is the 3th day she have left for NS......jeez y do Malaysia have such law saying that ppl who r randomly pick have to go NS???....WTF is this???.....this is stupid....anyway its very hard for me.....i dun want to be the third party....but yet i still have feelings for her....how can i prevent myself from getting deeper into this shit....i just cant forgot the days we spent together and when we talked...........maybe i will wait for her....and keep a distance in the meanwhile.....hope Chinese new year come faster so i can talk to her again....

day 2 without her....

2010-01-14T05:51:00.000-08:00

hey people....i m back...today is one of the best days i had ever since the day i came back to Malaysia.....i didn't have to do much housework today....then went shopping with my mom....and met up with my aunt....
and my study desk was delivered here to my my house today....finally.....
.....sunshine had gone to the NS for the 2th day already.....for the 1st day i almost gone buts....today i miss her talking to me so much...
i wonder how m i gonna pull through 3 months without her....well able or not able to.....i have to stay strong for her...promised her i would....lol....i feel so sorry for grace....she can only be online on Saturday only...life really suck without sunshine.....no sunshine ,no moonlight.....

............

2010-01-11T05:38:00.000-08:00

here the things that happened...
1)scolding for nothing
2)being push the blame to...
3)cant get my o level results...
4)got ignore by someone
5)got drag out of house to go somewhere i don want.....
6)EMPTINESS...
7)wrote a letter next....

........will i be able to forget her??? heres :counting the days

2010-01-07T05:16:00.000-08:00

So here I go, and there you went again.Just another stupid thing that I've done wrong.Locked up in my head, knocked down, beaten, left for deadWith all those brilliant things I should have said.

I gotta get away, and find something to do'Cause everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.

Still counting the days I've been without you. 1, 2, 3, 4...Still counting the days that you've been gone.

Day one, was no fun.
Day two, I hated you.
By day three I wish you'd come right back to me.Day four, five and six, well I guess you just don't give a shit.Day seven, this is hell. this is hell.

I gotta get away, and find something to do.But everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.

Still counting the days I've been without you. 1, 2, 3, 4...Still counting the days that you've been gone.
Still counting the days since you left me. 1, 2, 3, 4...Still counting the days since you've been gone.

A thousand things I wanna say to you, but it's too late now.
A thousand things I wanna say...
A thousand things I wanna say to you, but it's too late now.
A thousand things I wanna say...

Still counting the days I've been without you.
Still counting the days that you've been gone.

Still counting the days I've been without you. 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you've been gone.
(a thousand things I wanna say...)
Still counting the days since you left me. 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you've been gone.(Gone... Gone... Gone... Gone...)

this song is dedicated to her.....missed calling her 'sunshine'......so here the song for u sunshine....counting the days by goldfinger....

y m i always the one ....the joker.....

2010-01-06T06:37:00.000-08:00

life will still suck.....well at least when i get good grades for my o level.......gah....morning and afternoon is still the same.....housework and nagging...at night went to the night market with my mom,sis,vivian,jackie,and whatshernameagian?......and i hate myself.....i just cant mae myself stay angry for long......jeez.....or was i just masking my grudge from her...........
hate
hate
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hate
hate
hate
hate
hate
hate
hate
hate
hate
hate
hate......who should i hate myself or her....
anyway was lso expect vian sis to come but she didnt turn up.....oh well ....lol.....
nite ppl.....

One more day closer.....

2010-01-05T06:08:00.000-08:00

.......had dreams bout y o level .....2 days in a row.....i really hope i have done wel for my Os.....anyway....didnt have to do much housework today.....went to get a new desk....expecting it to be deliver in a week time.....actually missed talking to her.....missed the days we laughed at the lame jokes....ah....she and my sis keeps saying that her younger is a better match for me.....
i don know wat i shold do bout it...i somehow hae this feeling that if i fall for her sis.....i m using her as a substitude...though its nth wrong with falling for her......but it dosnt feel rite....but her sis is quite pretty...and it seems to me that we have a lot of things in common.....i was pretty cold to 'sunshine'.....she is the 'sunshine'.....maybe i owe her a 'sorry'.....maybe i m jealous.....its not her faut....will this torment ever end?......

expect the unexpected

2010-01-04T05:22:00.000-08:00

hey guys.....back to blogging....do still feel a little pissed off now and then...had to help my mom in she bullshit garden stuff.....and later i got drag along to the outside world....jeez....the thing the keeps me thinking of .....is 11 jan to 13 jan when the o level results r out....my sis actually told me that she actually got attached to someone else.....unexpected.....i was like watever......then later i realised that my heart was punched......more than punched....lucky i went playing basketball with my cousin,and forgot that sadness that overwhelmed me early......now that my sis mentioned it agian....its back agian.....i feel like crap now.....nothing....its like the light betrayed me and the shadows r my ally now......actually its like they always hink that i m a kid.....and i m not serious...thinking that i m a filrt.....to hell with it,i m not.......those r real feelings back there in sunway....actually she inspired one of my drawings too......anyway she does'nt like emo guys ......so....i guess i should move on......it does'nt worth a shit thinking of it.....
-cheer up Allen-san-
'what does the shadow wills?'

Beauty of emptiness......

2009-12-27T04:19:00.001-08:00

Today is still a normal day....expect that my dad is traveling back to singapore....the only thing that interested me was....the moon,in the sky....i could see the moon in the daylight when the sun is about to set.....its a pity i could not take a pic for u guys to see....but trust me....its beautiful...well its something like that....

expect for the moon isst that BIG.......

my new life....

2009-12-26T06:56:00.000-08:00

hey ppl....i kind of miss my stay in singapore......miss my freedom....but....at least when i m in malaysia....i actually made my very first group of friends......vivian,kok XXX and many more....kind of miss my big bro presence ever since he left for melbourne yesterday......anyway....ever since i came back i found that wat i thought bout malaysia was all wrong....learn really load of stuff....life isst that bad after all....

LOVE YOU SUNSHINE!!!!!

i m scared.....

2009-12-20T06:10:00.000-08:00

hey ppl.....its been days....something is happening....i don know wat.....but....i have been getting strange markings on my arm....which i don know where it originated from....my sis warned me that it might be i have offended someone...or something....ANYWAY!....i have a question for u ppl....u think it ok to have a crush on someone older than u by a little? this post ends here....

WOW! today is a great day!!!

2009-12-15T07:49:00.003-08:00

->hey ppl....guess wat i went to SUNWAY LAGOON today!!!!!!hahaha....jealous right?!went there with my elder bero and sis,and our parents fetched us there....quite a distance actually....

HERES THE THING....first i met a number of new friends ,then we played,then we got a little hyper....

Wanna know who i met? i met the famous vivian ng(she is gorgeous),hock xxx(something something,sorrry dude just cant remember),Eric(i think so,he is a big guy,MAN!!!!),Clavin?(the emo and mature,and some say lame)

Yeah i say they r all my sis friends....and we had a really great time....will miss those guys....T.T.....wish i can go out with them agian....

and Vivian say to me:pls don try flirt like an adult ,u r still a little boy.....Vivian i emo for u see le la....

me and my boring no life....

2009-12-10T05:22:00.000-08:00

ahhhhh.....i M ALREADY sick of life in malaysia....gah....everyday is like do the same thing without fail....i really miss my secondary school life.....T.T missed my friends in singapore.....
everytime i look at the night sky.....it just reminds me bout setsuko.....and wish she is sit by me to star-graze.....lol.....anyway.....already missed playing DOTA with those singapore dudes....the connection is malayisa LAN shops totally sucks.....and these ppl that play DOTA r really noobs.......CONCLUSION:malaysia ppl play outdated DOTA maps.....

another day agian....

2009-12-09T07:05:00.002-08:00

lol.....hey ppl....hope my blog look nice.....living in malaysia is totalling no life....lol.....i m like doing the same stuff like over and over agian....anyway hate seeing setsuko so upset bout the loss of someone.....ANYWAY!!!!!!cheer up setsuko!!!!sure Ben does'nt want to see u so upset....bye for tonight....

reborn...

2009-12-07T07:35:00.001-08:00

today i accompany my mom to service out honda car....then later picked my bro up from his shopping....well then we had dinner which i forgot its name....HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY!!!!.....i could talk to setsuko AGIAN!!!!!.....she lighted up my sky agian!!!hahahaha....good night ppl

Another day....in malaysia and without her...

2009-12-03T05:20:00.000-08:00

well same as usual....wake up at 8+,do housework,help out my mom in her cooking,and well....later go fetch my dad from the airport....and tmr morning we have to fetch my big bro from the airport....lol...anyway in the late afternoon me and my cousin went to a lousy LAN shop to play DOTA....damn i losed to him........ahhhhhhh....i cant stop thinking bout setsuko.....should i just forgot bout her....i didnt talk to her for 3 days.....3 FREAKING days.......i will be taking my guitar lessons soon....well i hope to write a song bout me and setsuko.....T.T

2009-12-02T06:58:00.000-08:00

Hey calling all fangirls of the twlight saga.....Here r the 20 things the twlight saga teaches u....

If a boy is aloof, stand-offish, ignores you or is just plain rude, it is because he is secretly in love with you — and you are the point of his existence.
Secrets are good — especially life-threatening ones.
It’s OK for a potential romantic interest to be dimwitted, violent and vengeful — as long as he has great abs.
If a boy tells you to stay away from him because he is dangerous and may even kill you, he must be the love of your life. You should stay with him since he will keep you safe forever.
If a boy leaves you, especially suddenly (while telling you he will never see you again), it is because he loves you so much he will suffer just to keep you safe.
When a boy leaves you, going into shock, losing all your friends and enduring night terrors are completely acceptable occurrences — as long as you keep your grades up.
It is extremely romantic to put yourself in dangerous situations in order to see your ex-boyfriend again. It’s even more romantic to remember the sound of his voice when he yelled at you.
Boys who leave you always come back.
Because they come back, you should hold out, waiting for them for months, even when completely acceptable and less-abusive alternative males present themselves.
Even though you have no intention of dating an alternative male who expresses interest in you, it is fine to string the young man along for months. Also, you should use him to fix things for you. Maybe he’ll even buy you something.
You should use said male to fix things because girls are incapable of anything mechanical or technical.
Lying to your parents is fine. Lying to your parents while you run away to save your suicidal boyfriend is an extremely good idea that shows your strength and maturity. Also, it is what you must do.
Car theft in the service of love is acceptable.
If the boy you are in love with causes you (even indirectly) to be so badly beaten you end up in the hospital, you should tell the doctors and your family that you “fell down the steps” because you are such a silly, clumsy girl. That false explanation always works well for abused women.
Men can be changed for the better if you sacrifice everything you are and devote yourself to their need for change.
Young women should make no effort to improve their social skills or emotional state. Instead, they should seek out potential mates that share their morose deficiencies and emotional illnesses.
Girls shouldn’t always read a book series just because everyone else has.
When writing a book series, it’s acceptable to lift seminal source material and bastardize it with tired, overwrought teenage angst.
When making or watching a major feature film, you should gleefully embrace the 20 minutes of plot it provides in between extended segments of vacant-eyed silence and self-indulgent, moaning banter.
Vampires — once among the great villains of literature and motion pictures — are no longer scary. In fact, they’re every bit as whiny, self-absorbed and impotent as any human being.

my new life....

2009-12-02T05:47:00.000-08:00

today is as usual as the very day i came back to malaysia......-.-....anyway,i m pretty happy....know why?
I GOT MY NEW GLASSES!!!.....cool huh???lol...then mom,sis and me had KFC for dinner....
And my bro coming to visit us!
anyway still missed setsuko....wish i can talk to her agian.....

she and i....

2009-11-30T07:41:00.000-08:00

She is girl that can break my heart...
She can light up my sky...
She could bring the best out of me....
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yes i m in love with her
I cant stop think about her
she is my dream girl....

2009-11-29T07:21:00.000-08:00

Finally, i managed to change my blog template. -___-lll